I remember hearing about ink trails, a line behind you that tracks everywhere you’ve been, dark and thick for repeated journeys but with thinner loops for out of the usual special trips. I’ve walked the route to work nearly every day for years, that path must be soaking in ink, written deep into the surface of my existence. The reason for most journeys starts at the end of the route, travelling to get somewhere for a purpose or to achieve something at that location. I travel to work to be at work, to do my work. The walk is nice some days, but I don’t drag myself out of the house to go for a walk. A pilgrimage is different, the journey is the purpose, the route has an importance steeped in history and belief, and every step has meaning. I might not know yet exactly why I want to go – a barely formed mix of gratitude and a wish for peace, to leave the rest of the world behind for a little while and focus inwards – but it’s important to me that I do go. The way is before me now and I’m ready to start walking.
Email I wish I could send
Thoughts on a home
I had such a strong moment today of remembering being in my childhood bedroom it took me a while to remember the layout of my own house… I had to focus to mentally separate the places I’ve lived, and it made me realise how many similarities my home now has to the house I grew up in. There’s probably some deep psychological meaning to that, and maybe the reason this house felt like home the moment I first entered (despite some truly horrendous decorating choices by the previous owners). Maybe it’s the layout – same or very similar orientation and arrangement of bedroom and living room and kitchen… 18 months and it’s only just consciously occurred to me. It was a very strange sensation, and left me feeling a little lost and uprooted, especially as that childhood house was sold years ago. Brains and memories can be very odd things…
I have a lot to be grateful for here where my life and choices have led me, but my home town still has a strange pull on me… It still feels like a homecoming every time. Perhaps it will always be a home, those roots never truly working loose or dying away, in much the same way my Mum still refers to where she grew up as home despite there no longer being a particular place to return to. Or maybe because over time ‘home’ becomes people and emotions rather than a place. And those things are more important and valuble than any building could ever be.
Travel sketching
I want to get more into sketching and watercolour painting, but I only really get aronund to it on holidays – not a regular practice schedule so it’s no wonder I still can’t make it look like I want…
For my long weekend in Warsaw at the end of January I made my first mini themed palette inspired by various posts and pictures I’ve seen online. I put together 6 half-pan watercolours in colours that fit the destination in a mints tin. I did a lot of research on places to go and got a feel for the colours of the city.
View of the market square. Bit gloomy due to the snowcloud but shows the city colours.
I think I chose OK but trying to paint a tree with no green was an interesting challenge!
It was a bit cold for sketching in Poland in January so I only did a couple of drawings outside, and did a bit of painting back at the hotel in the evenings. I bought myself an instant camera to add photos to the sketch book at the same time which was useful (of course as soon as I bought one I saw another I’d prefer but oh well…).
The cookie wasn’t actually burnt, I just got carried away with the colours 😄
Now I want to plan my next adventure and a new palette but there’s these things called exams and bills I need to think about too…
On the push and pull of stability and travel
All photos are from my trip to Croatia last September 🙂
Outgoing postcards
It’s been a while since I’ve sent many postcards… I had a real block on letter writing recently, I’ve got a stack of replies to write and I just can’t get the words down. But here’s a few postcards that will go out tomorrow. I decided if I want to come home to nice post I’ll have to send more!
The cards on the left are off to China via Postcard United – to someone who likes flags, and someone who likes local views. That’s a card from my hometown of Shrewsbury 🙂
The cards on the right are going out to Russia via Postcrossing. The Jane Austen quote is to someone who likes anything which always makes a hard choice of what to send. The Postcrosser who likes yoga was easier to pick a card for!
The card on the left I’m sending to my Dad, my big nut brown hare (for anyone who knows ‘Guess how much i love you’ 😊).
The ‘once upon a time’ card is for a swap-bot swap for the first and last lines of a current book. I’m currently re-reading one of my favourite books – ‘Saving CeeCee Honeycutt’ by Beth Hoffman. It’s a story about a young girl who loses her mother and goes to live with an Aunt in Georgia where she rediscovers how to be happy.
And the carved stones are off to a postcard pal in Taiwan 👋😀
I actually got the addresses at least a week ago so I’m still struggling with getting post ready to send, but it feels good to be sending them out to start their journeys.
On the way…
If I owe you a letter, chances are good it’s now on its way!
8 letters and a birthday present on the way to all around the world. With moving house and the resulting chaos, as well as everyday life and low level depression it’s taken me a long time to reply to most of these. I’m going to try very hard to get better at replying within a decent time now. It’ll be nice to start receiving letters again, I’ve had such a backlog of replies to write I haven’t received much nice post recently!
Fading light
I was feeling a bit meh in a tiredness/depression/not quite Friday slump but it’s a lovely evening to remember to appreciate life and the world (even if my suburban view isn’t the most attractive!).
Lettermo – day… whatever
It’s admittedly not the best of folding, large glittery cardboard isn’t the easiest to work with, but it should just squeeze through as a normal sized letter 🙂 Now I just have to sit down and write it…
Lettermo days 6 & 7
I’m just about keeping up… some days I just have more energy for concentrating on things like words, even ‘wild and whirling words’ like this card I wrote today.
The postcard is yesterday’s post, it’s off to China via Postcard United. The recipient had a completely blank profile so I went for a fairly generic card I could wrote something about.
The note card is a reply to someone who friended me on the Lettermo website, and is heading to southern England.
Just need to get them to a post box now…